Sunday, September 25, 2011

A quest for forgiveness


Meditation on forgiveness

I choose to be willing to forgive
I choose to let the past go
  once and for all
I choose to let the peace of forgiveness
  rest in my heart
I choose to let the quietness of forgiveness
  rest in my mind
I choose to let the tranquility of forgiveness
  rest in my body
I choose to forgive now
I feel ready to forgive now
I feel a burden being lifted from me
  as I accept forgiveness as my path to freedom
I feel open to love filling the space in which
  anger and hurt and sadness used to be locked,
  keeping me a prisoner
I feel relieved
I feel free
I am ready to forgive
I am forgiving myself and others
  for all the words, actions, and inactions I have perceived
  in the past as having wronged me or hurt me
I am forgiving myself for having been unwilling to forgive in the past
I am allowing and welcoming the peace of forgiveness to rest in my heart,
  the quietness of forgiveness to rest in my mind,
  and the tranquility of forgiveness to rest in my body
I am forgiven
I forgive 
I am loved
I love
I am grateful.

(Thanks to Bea Resnick)

E-How on Forgiveness

"When someone else causes us emotional harm, whether unintentional or intentional, learning to let go of this pain can be one of the most difficult transitions we go through.  Carrying emotional pain, anger, anxiety, and other distressing thoughts about a situation or someone often is easier for us than beginning the forgiveness process.  We can choose either to become bitter and angry or view the end result as an opportunity for personal growth and change.  Even without an apology, make up your mind to forgive, forget, and eventually let go…"




Saturday, September 17, 2011

*** "The Sunne in Splendour" ***

Warwick Castle near Banbury, UK


"The Sunne In Splendour" is about the controversial King Richard III, about whom Will Shakespeare got it very wrong.  It's about the derring-do, bravery, treachery, and passion of the English court (1459-1492) beginning with Richard as a child, his brother Edward on the throne.  These stories inspired Shakespeare (1564-1616) and we can see why.  In my opinion, Penman writes as Shakespeare in a modern-day fashion, her language illustrative and clever.  It's 936 pages, including an Afterward and Author's Note, both of which should not be missed. 

As Caroline Kennedy said the other day to Jon Stewart, There’s so much humanity that goes into the making of history.

“The Sunne in Splendour,” by Sharon Kay Penman (1982)


"What of Salisbury?" His voice was thick, roughened with the embittered outrage of a man who feels himself unjustly accused but can find few to champion his cause."  p. 46

***
But what disturbed Marguerite the most about the young Yorkist Duke now calling himself King was that he was seducer as well as soldier.  He'd won London with his smile as much as with his sword ... as his father could never have done. p. 67

***
"You'd do best not to measure yourself by Ned's standards.  Ned is a law unto himself, in more ways than one!  You needn't look so troubled.  I'm not saying Ned's standards are at fault, merely that they're his.  And anytime you try to walk around in someone else's boots, you're apt to find them a poor fit."  p. 126

***
His Woodville in-laws had sorely disillusioned him within months of his marriage.  An extraordinarily handsome family, they soon showed themselves to be endowed with little more than good looks, to be grasping and inept at all but making enemies, at which they excelled.  Edward was not long in reaching the conclusion that his interests would’ve been better served had his wife been an only child. p. 165

 ***
Elizabeth was a poor judge of people, for she was not curious enough to speculate upon the needs and wants that motivated others.  But even to her, it was clear that her husband felt somehow threatened by the realization that her sexual needs existed independently of his own desires.  p. 172

***
He [Francis Lovell] was spurred on by apprehension, and by Monday, August 27, he was in sight of the white limestone city walls of York.  There he was welcomed with enthusiasm by Richard and with flattering friendliness by the King.  Almost at once, he blurted out the reason for his mission, and solemnly assured them that Lovell loyalty was pledge unwaveringly to York, for now and for all time to come. 

At that, Edward laughed and said he demanded no avowal of loyalty that extended beyond the length of a man’s lifetime.  p. 186

***
Alison closed the door softly behind her, moved toward the bed.  Elizabeth watched in silence; she never bothered to make polite conversation, never addressed Alison at all unless she had some need she wanted met.

Alison had not been witness to Elizabeth’s initial response to the devastating news of Doncaster.  Rumor had it that she’d at first refused to believe it, stubbornly rejected all evidence brought before her, and continued to do so until she was confronted with a hastily scribbled warning in her husband’s own hand.  It was said that she’d then given in to hysterics, an emotional outburst so violent that she’d raised fears for the well-being of the child she carried.  Her recovery had been rapid enough, however, for her to have thought to take with her into sanctuary all her jewelry and much of her wardrobe.   p. 211

***
“…It was then that I first suspected you might be an ally worth having!  And I confess, time has not proven me wrong in that.”

Richard was pleased by shy to show it.  “And for my part, I think I might safely say as much for you,” he said generously.”

Edward grinned.  “Hell, you’d trust me unto death and we both do know it.  Face it, Dickon, you’ve always been a faulty judge of character!”  p. 235

***
Philippe grinned, bringing his hand up belatedly to hide it, and after a pause, Charles laughed grudgingly.

“I admit I like you better than I thought I would,” he conceded.  “But I doubt that I like you well enough to finance an expedition doomed to failure.”

Edward was still smiling.  “My sister told me you do speak your mind.  If I might do likewise… You can lose only by doing nothing.  If you back me, I can assure you that I’ll keep my cousin Warwick too busy to concern himself with wars of conquest!  If you don’t, you’re sure to face an Anglo-French force before the spring thaw.”  p. 242

***
From the white city walls of Coventry, the Yorkist army stretched as far as the eye could see, spread out in battle formation under the Sunne in Splendour banner of Edward of York.  The Yorkist herald had just given challenge to combat, as he had on each of the two preceding days, and as he had done then, the Earl of Warwick refused to pick up the gauntlet, staring down in silence from the city walls at the army of his cousin of York.  p. 262

***
“Men are born to sin, Richard.  What does matter most is not that we err…  It is that we do benefit from our mistakes, that we are capable of sincere repentance, of genuine contrition.”  p. 276

***  
…Edward drummed on the table with his pen, absently applying so much pressure that the quill point split.  He tossed it aside, said, “Will, I do want you to take the rear again, as at Barnet.”

Will strove for nonchalance, did not quite carry it off.  He’d had some uneasy days this week past, wondering if Edward would entrust him again with a command after the disaster that had overtaken his left wing at Barnet.   p. 330

***
Rob and Francis were looking on with admiration, and Richard grinned.  He was very proud of the white polished armor, thought it a veritable work of art, perfect in every piece, as well it should be for it had been custom-made for him by one of the Flemish masters… [Richard] laughed now as they assured him the whole of the Lancastrian army would be most grateful that he’d thus made it so easy to distinguish Gloucester from the other knights of York.  p. 346

***
Edward gave no commands; he knew the knights of his household would follow.  He was in the saddle in a swift smooth motion that denied the weight of the armor he wore; and then the giant destrier was bearing down upon the men emerging from the woods, men who scattered in panic before the plunging hooves, the ravaging teeth, the sword that with each downstroke sheathed itself in flesh and bone. 

Edward was just six days past his twenty-ninth birthday, and for fully half of that lifetime he’d practiced the bloody arts of war.  But he’d never fought as he did now.  p. 348
***
“You could hardly have expected otherwise, Dickon.  What does surprise me is that you didn’t see this coming.  The signs were there, as far back as Windsor.”

“For God’s sake, Ned, don’t gloat!”

Edward looked mildly offended.  “I assure you that was not my intent.”  But after a moment, the corner of his mouth twitched.

“Yes, I guess it was!  But can you honestly fault me for it?  There’s no sweeter temptation, save one, than to say ‘I told you so,’ after all!”  p. 397

***
“I’m beginning to think that what you know could be inscribed upon the head of a pin, and with space to spare!” Richard snapped.  P. 399

***
“You could hardly have expected otherwise, Dickson.  What does surprise me is that you didn’t see this coming.  The signs were there, as far back as Windsor.”

“For God’s sake, Ned, don’t gloat!”

Edward looked mildly offended.  “I assure you that was not my intent.”  But after a moment, the corner of his mouth twitched.

“Yes, I guess it was!  But can you honestly fault me for it?  There’s no sweeter temptation, save one, than to say ‘I told you so,’ after all!”  p. 397

***
“I’m beginning to think that what you know could be inscribed upon the head of a pin, and with space to spare!” Richard snapped.  p. 399

***
“That be right!  She’s a redhead, too, isn’t she, Francis? . . . the lass who bore this Kathryn?”

“That be none of your concern, Rob!” he said sharply, more sharply than he’d intended.  Rob looked surprised and then hurt, and Richard relented, said with a smile meant to redeem his flare of temper.”  If you must know, the first love of my life was a thoroughly bewitching redhead named Joan. . . and I adored her with all the steadfast devotion you’d expect from a boy of six!”  p. 435

***
“Logically, a man should be congratulated that he’s gaining a wife, Francis, and commiserated with upon losing a mistress.”  p. 435

***
“Ned, you cannot. . . My God, I’m your brother!”

“Do you think it to be a relationship born of your convenience, to be called upon when it does suit you and ignore when it does not?  What have you ever done to make me think of you as a brother?  Did you truly think that because we did share the same womb, you’d be forever spared a reckoning, that you’d never be held to account for your crimes, your sins, your betrayals?”  p. 459

***
Her lashes lifted, giving him a glimpse of lucent liquid darkness.  A man could drown in eyes like hers, he thought, and then laughed at his own foolishness.  She laughed, too, for no other reason than that he did. 

***
“The art of governing, Dickon, is that of making use of talent wherever you do find it.  Trust is too rare an attribute to make it your prime prerequisite for holding office.  If I relied only upon those I truly do trust, we’d have a council of empty chairs!”  p. 476

***

He hesitated and then touched his lips lightly to hers.  But as he drew back. Her arms went up around his neck and suddenly she was in his arms; he felt the familiar warmth of her body pressing against his; her mouth was clinging, sweet, and it was as if the past year had never been.  p. 507

***

“Do you want go to war, Will?”

“Not particularly,” he conceded carelessly, and then held out his hand.  “Come here,” he said, and she laughed, rose sleek and dripping from the bath water.  She was reaching for a bath towel when the bedchamber door burst open.  Will sat up with an oath, and she hastily splashed down into the tub again as Will’s steward stumbled into the chamber.

“My lord, the King is here!  They be below the great hall even now and –“  He spun around in the doorway; they heard him gasp, “Your Grace!” and Edward strode past him into the chamber.

“In bed at midday, Will?  What ails you?”  But if the question was directed at Will, his eyes were directed elsewhere, were taking in the girl in the bathing tub, eyes that missed no detail of glistening wet skin, open red mouth, tumbled blonde hair.

“I withdraw the question,” he said, and laughed.  p. 524

***

Roger yearned to ask Edward what he meant to do.  Would Edward give Clarence the justice that had been denied his grandmother?  Or was this to be yet another crime for which Clarence would not be called to account?  But he dared not push it further.  He’d been dismissed.  In a turmoil of conflicting emotions, he made an awkward obeisance, and then fled the chamber.

Jane didn’t move, kept her eyes upon her lover.  “Ned?” she ventured at last.  “Was I wrong, my lord, to bring him to you?”

Edward turned to face her, and she caught her breath, seeing then the deadly controlled rage that thinned his mouth, filled his eyes.  Pray God he does never look thus at me, she thought and shivered.

“No,” he said flatly.  “No, you were not wrong.”  p. 566

***

That George was dangerous, Elizabeth did not doubt.  He was clumsy in his intrigues; he’d so far shown an uncanny knack for alienating people, had no friends, only lackeys and enemies, and he seemed queerly blind to the consequences of his actions, but he was dangerous withal.  Edward laughed at her when she tried to tell him that, but Elizabeth couldn’t afford to laugh.  George hated her with all the passions of a notoriously unstable nature.  He hated her and never forgot for a moment that he stood by blood very close, indeed, to the English throne.  Her son was not yet seven.  Should anything happen to Ned…”  p. 579

***

“…No . . . No, I couldn’t.  You’re right and I’m sorry, Lisbet.  I don’t blame you, in truth I don’t.”  The corner of his mouth twisted upward, counterfeited a smile.  “I would to God I could!  But I do know better; it be one of life’s little ironies that I do lie convincingly to everyone but myself.”  p. 626

***

Surrounded by clergy and city officials, Edward stood on the steps of the west door of St. Peter’s, awaiting his brother’s entry into the precincts of the Minster.  He was able to gauge Richard’s progress up Stonegate by the volume of cheering; it grew louder and he knew Richard had turned now onto Petergate, was approaching the High-Minster Gate.  p. 630

***

Elizabeth’s mouth was drawn down at the corners, as expressive as any denunciation she might have made.  p. 630  . . . Damn Lisbet and her venom!  He’d breathed her poison in like air, absorbed it without even being aware of it.  p. 631

***

“Papa. . . . If the Duke of Albany be willing to betray his brother the Scots King, how can you be sure he won’t be willing to betray you?”

Richard gave Johnny a look of surprised approval.  “We cannot be sure.  It’s unfortunate but true that we have to take our allies as we find them, and all too often they do have feet of clay.”  p. 642

***

“…For certes, some will find kin to give them shelter.  But I’ll not lie to you, sweetheart.  There will be others who’ll take ill and die.”  Edward shifted so he could better see her face, said with sudden seriousness, “The innocent will always suffer in the time of war, Cecily.  That just be the way of it.  Your pity does you credit, but tell me this.  Would you rather the homeless and hungry be English women and children?”  p. 647

***

Anne was no longer listening, was watching the man being ushered into the hall.  She’d seen enough couriers in her life to recognize one on sight.  It was unusual, however, for a messenger to appear before a lord like Richard in such travel-stained disarray.  That he was unshaven, grimy with days of hard riding told a tale in itself; his message must be urgent.  p. 669

***

Behind him he heard John Scrope say gruffly, “I hope to Christ you’ve not blundered, Dickon, in keeping our numbers so small.”

Was Scrope right?  Had he erred on the side of caution?  If so, God help them all; that was not a mistake a man would get to make twice.  p. 676

***

It was not a congenial gathering, the atmosphere charged with dark undercurrents of strain, much like the static electricity that foretold a coming storm.  p. 722

***

“My first lesson in betrayal came at seventeen, when I did learn that […]  I’d have thought no degree of double-dealing could surprise me after that, but I was wrong.  Last night I did discover all over again just what men will do in the name of ambition.  Even men who profess to love honor…”  His mouth contorted suddenly.  “Men who cloak heir betrayals in friendship.”  p. 723

***

Emerging from one of the ground-floor garderobes in the southwest tower, Francis caught his breath, dazzled by the beauty of the red-gold sky above his head.  Even the river was ablaze, reflecting the flaming brilliance of the dying sun.  He stood there for a time by the river wall, savoring the moment.  p. 751

***

Since Richard’s coronation, Stanley had thrown himself into the role of a loyal and prudent councilor with all the zeal of a reformed heretic, and he addressed himself now to Richard with an earnestness that just missed being obsequious.  p. 752

***

Even assuming he could find grounds to dissolve the marriage, and he was by no means certain that he could, even then, it was just not that simple.  For nineteen years Anna had been his wife, his responsibility, and it was not her fault that he could not love her.  She’d done all he’d ever asked of her – ran his household, entertained his friends, befriended his sisters, ignored his infidelities.  She’d failed in only one of her duties as a wife, and in that, he could not be sure if the failing was hers or his.  p. 765

***

Even if she’d succeeded in silencing Bray, the damage had already been done; she was enough of a realist to know that.  He’d already planted the seeds, and nothing took root faster than rumor.  People didn’t have to believe it; it was enough that they’d pass it on.  p. 837

***

She struggled to stave off sleep for a few minutes more, for Richard’s sake, and then felt him lifting her up, brushing her hair back from her neck, and she opened her eyes, saw that he’d taken from his own throat the silver pilgrim cross he’d worn since boyhood.  He fumbled with the catch, and it took several tries before he could fasten it securely around her neck.  It was tarnished, dulled with age, but warm against her skin, as it still held the heat drawn from his body.  p. 856

***

The shadow-world of sleep recognized no borders.  There, the past and present were one country, shaped by memory and peopled by need.  Richard had been dreaming of Anne…  p. 876

***

“It’s not only my own life I must wager this Monday, it be yours, too, the lives of so many men.  Well, never again, that I swear to you.  Should God grant me the victory, I’ll do what I must to make secure my kingship.  I’m done with forgiving treasons, forgetting treachery.  Leniency lends itself only to further betrayals.  But that is not the way I ever wanted it to be, and that is not a future I can look to with any expectation.”

Rob and Francis looked at each other, neither knowing what to say.  But Richard was already turning away, moving to meet the scout just dicking under the tent flap.  p. 894


***

"I don't mean to malign the man, Dickon, but he's a mediocrity whose only known talent has been for equivocation.  But what have you, the title he bears be one of England's proudest.  Can you trust him?"

"Do we have a choice?"

"No," Howard conceded.  p. 896


***

"I've known the Stanleys for nigh on thirty years, Dickon, and while they're long on promises, they're invariably short on delivery.  If Tudor be counting on them to throw him a lifeline, he's like to find it a hangman's noose, instead."  p. 898

***
"I have consented to be your wife, Henry.  I want no more war, no more killing, will do what I can to reconcile Yorkist and Lancastrian loyalties.  I will do all that is expected of a wife, of a Queen, and God willing, I will give you sons.  But there is one thing I will not do.  I will not discuss Richard of Gloucester with you. . . not now, not ever."  p. 916

***

Dear Reader:  I was in the process of including here the last few lines of the novel, they're so good, but I'll leave that to you. 

PS:  Even the Afterward and the Author's Note are enjoyable, so I recommend those, too.  Thank you, Sharon Kay Penman, for the longest, best novel I've ever read.  ~mandy

***

The author uses such beautiful language that I wanted to understand every word of it:

asperity  310 - harshness or sharpness of tone, temper, or manner
malmsey  387 - a strong, sweet wine, usually from Greece
sangfroid 580 - calm, composure
surcease 656 - to cease from some action; desist
gainsay 680 - to deny, dispute, or contradict
obeisance 810 - a movement of the body expressing deep respect or deferential courtesy, as before a superior; a bow, curtsy, or other similar gesture.
destrier 904 - a war horse
immur(e)ing 925 - to enclose within walls, to shut in, seclude or confine; to imprison
 
For the past year and several months I have been in the thralls of the best book I have ever enjoyed in my life, a historical novel by Sharon Key Penman, made better by the number of pages -- 933 -- making it the longest book I've ever read, and I’m fifteen or so pages until the end… and would that I could make it go on...  It has been a few pages short of 931 of engrossing sometimes blissful enjoyment of the telling of history with lush language, landscape and geography, intrigue at court, bravery and superstitions, betrayal and valor, treachery, love, faith and bloody battles, rebellion, cowardice, imprisonments in the tower, and romantic trysts.  For more than a year this book has been my companion and I've loved every page of it.  I would sometimes put it down now and then but rarely for more than a couple of weeks, although I did have that long stretch for a while...  I’ve taken it with me everywhere.

"The Sunne in Splendour:  A Novel of Richard III," is as much about Richard's older brother, Ned -- the savvy and charasmatic King Edward IV.  There were parts of the book that made me gasp out loud and occasionally cry. 
I have been very careful not to reveal too much in the passages I've shared; just enough to share the beauty of the prose of a true, historical recounting.  Lest you think I may have revealed too much, I can assure you, that should matter not at all, for I have read the entire book, word for word, and I'm excited to start it again.  I would start it immediately were there not other books on my list, and I really must get on with those, but this book is a joy.  And it's all true or as close to true as possible.  And yes, Shakespeare got the story of Richard III entirely wrong!  (I look forward to a new production more in line with this telling.)

This blog is my small thanks to a story beautifully and imaginatively told that opened up my imagination of and understanding of life in England in 1459 through 1485, some 80 years before Will Shakespeare was born, who might have admitted, if he were pressed, that these stories practically wrote themselves.  But nobody told those tales like he.  I hope you enjoy it like I did.
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Sept 12, 2012:  “Bones found in hunt for King Richard III’s remains”




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Sunday, July 31, 2011

The highly sensitive person




(This one's all about me.)  I am everywhere in this article, which describes me eerily well, so it looks like, according to studies, I'm not so neurotic or weird. 

"They tear up at phone commercials. They brood for days over a gentle ribbing. They know what you're feeling before you do. Their nerve cells are actually hyperreactive [ooh la la]. Say hello to the Highly Sensitive Person—you've probably already made him cry."

link-->  http://drjudithorloff.com/Press-Room/Psychology_Today_A_Guide_to_the_Highly_Sensitive_Person.htm

The article it goes into detail to explain how the nervous systems of certain people are more in tune with receiving stimuli from their environment around them and there are biological and emotional links. The article describes multiple studies in which a physical stimuli tested for sensitivity, i.e., a loud noise, set off certain enforced reactions in more active/sensitive people, whereas nonactive/control group people didn't notice the sound or if they did, did not react. The same people who reacted were also shown to be much more emotionally sensitive as well.

The article says at one point that these people are able to feel/experience things so much greater than others that it's like feeling something with fifty finger instead of ten -- which has its blessings and curses, including extreme sensitivity to sound, light, smell, and touch, as well as others' moods and motivations.

The same gene linked to anxiety and depression is the main one focused on in HSP (highly sensitive persons), that same gene also gives the benefit of cognitive abilities, especially in decision making. Around 20% of the population is estimated to be in the HSP category.


Where are you on the Highly Sensitive-Asperger's Syndrome scale?  And have you always known it?

By Andrea Bartz, published on July 05, 2011

Settling into a chair for coffee with a friend, Jodi Fedor feels her heart begin to pound. Tension creeps through her rib cage. Anger vibrates in her solar plexus. But she's not upset about anything. The person across from her is. Fedor soaks up others' moods like a sponge.

On a walk through her neighborhood in Ottawa, Canada, her attention zeroes in on the one budded leaf that hasn't unfurled; it brings a lump to her throat. The cawing of a far-off crow galvanizes her attention. An abandoned nest half-hidden amid the treetops fills her with awe.

Less lovely stimuli can have equally powerful effects. As a child, a casual schoolyard taunt led to "sobbing and histrionics." Nowadays a small slight can ricochet through her entire body "like I'm actually wounded."
Fedor is sensitive—an adjective usually preceded by too. "I'm like an exposed nerve," she says. "At its worst, my sensitivity turns me into an emotional weather vane at the whim of my environment." But at its best, it's a gift, a fine-tuned finger on the pulse of every flutter of her surroundings.


The Highly Sensitive Person has always been part of the human landscape. There's evidence that many creative types are highly sensitive, perceiving cultural currents long before they are manifest to the mainstream, able to take in the richness of small things others often miss. Others may be especially sensitive to animals and how they are handled. They're also the ones whose feelings are so easily bruised that they're constantly being told to "toughen up."

Today, science is validating a group of people whose sensitivity surfaces in many domains of life. Attuned to subtleties of all kinds, they have a complex inner life and need time to process the constant flow of sensory data that is their inheritance. Some may be particularly prone to the handful of hard-to-pin-down disorders like chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. Technology is now providing an especially revealing window into that which likely defines them all—a nervous system set to register stimuli at very low frequency and amplify them internally.

We all experience shades of sensitivity. Who isn't rocked by rejection and crushed by criticism? But for HSPs, emotional experience is at such a constant intensity that it shapes their personality and their lives—job performance, social life, intimate relationships—as much as gender and race do. Those who learn to dial down the relentless swooping and cresting of emotions that is the almost invariable accompaniment to extreme sensitivity are able to transform raw perception into keen perceptiveness.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

"Slow Dance"


Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask, How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say, 'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last..

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over...

(name of author unknown)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

"Weekday" with Steve Scher this week

Link --> http://kuow.org/program.php?id=23919

Last Monday morning, July 11, the president held an interesting press conference on why we need to deal with our budget issues.  Then Steve Scher took calls from callers on the topic.  The link above is that hour on KUOW with Steve.

It was a lively discussion.  At minute 20 for three minutes, Randy from Marysville (!) spoke at length about how it's lazy people looking for handouts that are the root of our budget problems in this country.  Needless to say, he really got my Irish up.  I waited patiently and took some notes, and then at minute 37 for about three minutes I got to talk to Steve about (1) how much I love his show, and (2) why Randy from Marysville is an ugly American, and (3) how to fix our budget :) 

We shouldn't forget that Bush, et al.'s underhanded handling of the economy for eight years is what put us into the ditch and it will take some time to get us out. 

It's always fun to talk to Scher, his show is one of the best on the radio, and the calls were all interesting, albeit sometimes frustrating, and woefully misguided. 

Friday, July 8, 2011

Good fortunes

I have the nicest roommate a person could ask for.  She’s tiny, quiet, considerate, funny, and smiles all the time, and she cooks.  She’s a godsend and a peach and a friend already.  She’s very easy to be generous to.  It’s times like these I think somebody up there must like me : )  The universe is looking out for me and thinks I’m o-kay.  : )

I’m also grateful that my friends, Doug and Lisa’s, young son was only slightly injured in an accident last week when he could have easily lost his life or been seriously hurt.  He was hurt but will be fine, and for that, also, I’m truly grateful and only a fraction of how much his loving parents are.

If the universe smiles down on us (that’s a funny image) and grants us favors, then the converse is true…   If I have hardship or a tragedy, did the universe do that to me?  Did the devil?  Did I deserve it?  I don’t think so.  Besides, sometimes things just happen chaotically, randomly, unpredictably, sometimes excitingly and separate and apart from me and you, and I don’t tend to believe the universe centers around me, that things happen for me or to me or due to some greater meaning.  So I’m profoundly grateful and thankful, and sometimes I just feel lucky.  : )  There’s a lot to be grateful for, that’s for sure.

Surely what we do and believe attracts other to us, and repels them as well, and we should always treat others with courtesy, kindness, and consideration as best we can.  It’s the least we can do on our journeys.  And when they’re being douchebags, it’s okay to remind them that they’re being douchey, because they’re probably pretending otherwise.

I’m comfortable with and prefer random chaos to a grand scheme or hidden meanings because that way, it’s still open to our efforts and our beliefs.  The possibilities are endless.  Also, nature allows for randomness and chaos – storms, floods, pollenations, rainbows, and various other happenings -- and adapts and evolves, and that’s as it should be.  I trust nature to know.

Friday, July 1, 2011

The president is a dick

Seriously, Mark Halperin, he's a dick because why? Because he doesn't want to ask children, the elderly, students, lower-income employees, and the ill to pay more than rich people in taxes?

"He behaved as a dick..." That rankles in an uncomfortable way. A child behaves or not. A subordinate behaves or not. A qualified president doesn't behave one way or another. He just governs.

A dick is Mitch McConnell who insists the president come to Capitol Hill to be told exactly why his proposed budget will not be accepted.

You're about to see exactly how dickish the president can be, which is not his preferred method of dealing. But when a dick falsely calls you a dick, common sense demand that you demonstrate what a real dick is. I look forward to this fight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNd8-YaqSGI

Monday, June 27, 2011

Population control is controversial? and why I'm not a Nazi.




"There will soon be seven billion people on the planet. By 2045 global population is projected to reach nine billion. Can the planet take the strain?"  ~National Geographic magazine

I had one of the most bizarre conversations turned debate I think I’ve ever had yesterday. While hiking with a fellow hiker we got onto the conversation of animals in the wild, bears, cougars, etc. She knew a lot about these creatures and pontificated at length about them. I sensed she enjoyed showing off her knowledge, and I encouraged her with questions, and comments like “that’s really interesting” and “I didn’t know that!”


That conversation ran its course and I offered my belief: how unfortunate it is that animals’ numbers are decreasing while the human population is encroaching into their habitat. She immediately took issue with me and insisted, fairly vociferously, that there is no evidence at all that animals are decreasing in number due to anything people are doing. That information is merely propaganda by people who make money scaring people, including, she said angrily, Al Gore. One comment led to another and she disavowed not only climate change, but pollution and waste being a problem, and said it was completely narcissistic of anybody (i.e., me) to believe that humans could affect the planet in any significant way.


I realized pretty quickly not only was this woman’s thinking very different than my own -- fair enough – but also that she lacked any sense of humor whatsoever, not to mention consideration, which made the discussion rather tedious rather quickly. She was also insulting of my intelligence, opinions, discernment, and beliefs, but I said nothing about that.


I challenged her with several examples and information I’ve gleaned over the years, but she would not budge from her position that people are doing no harm to our little blue planet and there is nothing we need to change.


When I told her I believed population was the underpinning issue threatening the future of humans, animals, and the planet and that people should be encouraged to have fewer children, the shit hit the fan. She likened me to a Nazi.  "Theories of population control are what war criminals used to justify their elimination of certain people."

I turned to her, half annoyed and half enjoying this. “Seriously??” I said. “You’re seriously calling me a Nazi because I believe people should have fewer kids?!” I asked louder than I needed to.


“No, I didn’t say that.”


“You compared me to war criminals who exterminate people. That would make me a Nazi.”


“I didn’t say that.”


“But you likened me to a war criminal, right?”


“Yes...  People who want to eliminate other people are less than human."


How she made that leap in logic was beyond me, but the conversation had ceased being interesting or fun five or ten minutes earlier, so I merely slowed my pace and walked in silence while she tried two or three more times to engage me and convince me of the rightness of her argument.  After having been insulted, silence was the most gentle way I could find to be polite. She then began muttering to herself, carrying on an angry and animated conversation with no one in particular for another couple of minutes. 


Apparently, the topic of the exploding population and how it affects the earth’s resources is a controversial topic, but that’s no reason to avoid it. Important issues are often uncomfortable, fraught with complexities and differing opinions, but often the most important issues we need to talk about and address are uncomfortable. In a few short years, our numbers will be beyond sustainability. When do we begin to acknowledge that and try to do something about it?


What I would do if I were in charge is offer financial incentives for families to have fewer kids and financial penalties for parents who have large families, and the choice would remain theirs.  I would make birth control free and health care and education accessible to everyone.  I'm not afraid of slippery-slope arguments, which are often an excuse to do nothing at all.

Do you think population numbers are a problem? If so, what would you do if you could do anything?  If you don't believe it's a problem, can you explain why not?